My Last Class
Ray Rasmussen, USA
6: 15 p.m. The students begin to trickle into the classroom. Then
a surge of bodies, as if washed in by a wave. They murmur greetings,
fill the room with sound.
At 6:30 I introduce
a case study, a wrap-up to the term in which they will demonstrate
what they have learned, or not learned, over our 14 weeks of work.
I raise questions,
challenge their answers, grill them mercilessly. My thoughts run between
surprise at their intelligence as they twist and turn ideas to make
meaning of the case, and disappointment as I perceive that in places
they don't quite know what they're talking about.
8:30 p.m. The pace
and tension slacken, there's a pause like the one when the tide finally
stops running in and considers running out. I feel a bone-deep tiredness,
see fatigue in their faces, their need to leave these stiff-backed
wooden seats, to exit this stuffy room, to end it.
I stop, congratulate
them on the case and on completing the course. Then I ask those who
are graduating to stand.
You've worked hard for this," I say, "you shouldn't
just leave, empty, as if nothing significant has happened."
And, the rest of
us applaud them. Somewhere in the swell of sound I feel tears starting
and blink them away.
A swell of sound
again as they stand, stretch, make their goodbyes. Then a rush of bodies
out of the room. Some stop to thank me for the course. A few mention
that the course has made a difference to them. 8:45 p.m. I shut down
the computer-projector, shovel papers into my briefcase, and hear myself
mumbling that I'm graduating too, that this is the last class I will
teach. I am unable to blink the tears away.
garage cleaning day
my father's fishing pole
wrapped in dust
Rasmussen became interested in haiku poetry after photographing the
Kurimoto Japanese Garden near his home in Edmonton, Canada. He searched
the Internet for Asian poetry to supplement his images and was taken
by the simplicity and beauty of haiku and of the haibun style of writing.
publications are found in Contemporary Haibun, Contemporary Haibun Online, The Heron's Nest, Tiny Words, World
Haiku Review, Simply Haiku, haigaonline and Life
site, Haibun Journal, contains more of his own haibun as well as the
work of other writers in the genre.
Ray formerly served as Haiga Editor and Webmaster for Simply Haiku. He is
currently the managing editor of Contemporary Haibun
personal website is Ray's Web [http://raysweb.net]; his haiku related
website is Haiku [http://raysweb.net/haiku/].
2005: Simply Haiku